2007 - 2008
When I had
finished, ‘The man with the child in his eyes,’ with its happily ever after
ending, I knew it wasn't really the end. Oh yes, it would stand alone as a good
novel, but for me there was more and I had to write it down, if only for
myself. I have dealt with some very dark stuff in this second novel; jealousy,
guilt, confessions, fear, misunderstandings, loathing and embarrassment.
Can you love someone too much, so much, that it consumes you and drives you
into pushing them to the very edge of reason. This is the continuing story of
Samantha and Pierre.
Samantha has to learn to live with her past sexual abuse as
a child, it's not
easy, but she does her best in the only ways she knows how. She is happy, she
has a man whom she loves more than life itself and who loves and adores her.
But her past still causes her a lot of self-doubt issues and her life is a
perpetual storm in a tea-cup.
Her past psychologically affects Pierre
too. He wants to do what is best for her, but doesn't always know where to turn
and how to deal with certain situations. He tries to be everything to her and make
her totally dependent on him; he wants to keep her solely to himself. But this
isn't to just protect her state of mind, it is because he has his own problem,
a deep-seated jealousy of anyone who is to do with her past. When things aren't
going the way he thinks they should, he loses his temper, shouts her down, and
treats her like a child. The things he fell in love with her for, are the
things that could eventually drive them apart and causes them both a lot of
Just how far will she let him push her into compromising herself
and her very
soul for his sometimes, seemingly, perverse kind of love for her? He
continually promises himself that he will stop manipulating her and yet he goes
on and on until he ends up seeking psychiatric help for his problem. Even after
visiting a psychiatrist, he drags Samantha right back to her childhood, to face
her adoptive father in court. It's only when Pierre sees
Samantha up in the dock, and
testifying against her adoptive father, that he finally realises the dark
places that he's been pushing her into.
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I am actually
planning on writing the autobiography of Samantha, and her life as the rock and
film star, at some point in the future.